This What Not Being Sick Reads Like

“You’ve been gone the length of a bible.”

-paraphrased by me from Shakespeare in Love (an excellent film)

I have not, knock on wood, been sick. EVERYONE immediately around me has. Some of them more than one time. Given that there are five people around me and there have been 8 illnesses, you do the math and then you will understand why I have not been anywhere at all.

However, everyone is currently, again knock on wood, healthy.

Which brings me and you up to date.

Thanks for reading. 🙂

What? Still here…fine here is a bunch of stuff you have missed because you don’t live here.


Last night Palladium Books finally fessed up that they fucked up or in their vernacular once again laid the blame on everyone else. The gist, they have no money as in evidence by the statement that they cannot afford to pay shipment on the offer they made to backers. I could curse and rant and rave about this, but in all honesty I am glad that it is finally over. I am even happier that the Robotech license was taken away from them and I hope that the various lawsuits being bantered about see some measure of success against Palladium Books.

Blogging Apathy

While dealing with the sick I did not blog. You may have noticed that. I tried to blog once, but nothing happened. I’m not feeling it. Reading that many WordPress sites have a keylogging virus and the “fix” did not engender me to return. In fact, if it was not for my love of closure I probably wouldn’t have bothered with this. Of course I am a wishy washy person, so who knows.

Role-Playing Haps, Miss and Otherwise

Right before the wave of disease settled upon us we were role-playing. In my infinite wisdom I tried to offer an alternative game for us to play. I like Pathfinder as something to read. As something to play, way too many rules. I have no clue why rpgs feel the need to make a rule for everything and then make complicated rules for the stuff you are supposed to do a lot, but they do and I don’t want to be bothered. Which is why I tried to switch to Fate Core. Unfortunately, freedom of creation turned out to be a bigger burden than 79 steps to finish a round of anything (that is an exaggeration, but at times felt that way). I don’t know what is going to happen now that the disease has passed.

My Big Puddles and Whiskers Notebook

While I have not written here, I have written in a notebook that goes most places with me. I decided not to share any of my stories for a while because I have been bumrushing them to you. What this means is, I get an idea, I write it, I share it…without much thought to what is next. Now I am taking the time to craft the universe, the characters, and the action. For me this is more satisfying and will be how it remains until…well whenever. Gist of this is that Puddles and Whiskers are alive and well.

Social Media Pull Out

I started the process of reducing my social media depression machine. For those not in the know, use of social media can lead to depression. Lots of reasons why. No, I am not depressed, but I noticed a correlation between social media and my general happiness. So I cut myself off and my happiness has gone up. Facebook gone, LinkedIn gone, several smaller blogs gone or soon to be gone, and so on.  You don’t need to know my every move and I don’t need to know yours. Trust me, I will be happier.

No Games…

This is a bummer, but again due to illness we have only started to game again. I swear illness sucks.

Final Words

I don’t know if this will be my final blog or not. I don’t feel any urge to share with the world anymore. I told my story of college and then some. That being said, this blog will remain here in case I do decide to return, which knowing me could be tomorrow or another month.


-I hated Shane, the landowner should’ve won


Robotech RPG Tactics, Wave Two of Talking

While I continue to work on new Puddles and Whiskers with a focus on a new story I have paid attention to rumblings over on the Robotech RPG Tactics Kickstarter. Yes, that thing is still ongoing. I know right, how is it possible that after 3+ years a project that has shown ZERO proof of progress could still be active? Seems all you as a creator has to do to avoid ANY action at all by Kickstarter or for that matter the legal system is to continually and semi-regularly say something somewhere along the lines of “We are still doing stuff about the thing and that we are doing stuff, not that we can show or tell you about the stuff we are doing, means we are making an effort, which means you backers can’t do anything other than grumble about that thing we assure you we are doing stuff about and we sure as hell can continue to mention that thing and how great it will be once we get that stuff done.”

Or something  along those lines. Remember Kickstarter creators who drop the ball and need a way out of being sued to death, IF you borrow the above, please give credit where credit is due, because while I cannot sue you for being an fucktard and screwing up the Kickstarter I can sue you for plagiarism and a whole bunch of other isms. Always cite your sources. 🙂

Why “Wave Two of Talking” because a new talking head has appeared and he is talking about Wave Two and the future of a game that is so dead he might be a necromancer (it is also a not so subtle play on the missing Wave Two product and a new spokesperson). His name is Scott.

Here is what I can say for Scott, he writes better than anyone before (low threshold for those wondering). To this date he has kept his word, meaning that he has not promised anything other than to post updates more frequently. His particulars are vague. His better writing is also vague, at times condescending, and he is on a tight leash.

All of that being said, he has managed to put out several updates full of nothing that read better, but I said that already. I do not know why he, as the new spokesperson is not allowed to say the following, but he should be able to say all of the following:

1.) Palladium Books is sorry

2.) Palladium Boos is sorry

3.) Here is the real story, complete transparency, with the Kickstarter including how much, where, what, and why without any blaming, without any finger pointing or anything else that backers have been subjected to for 3+ years

4.) Here is the real story on where the Kickstarter is or isn’t; an honest with PROOF, of where the project is in production or if the project is dead

5.) Palladium Books will stop sounding like the gaming version of Donald Trump with “how great everything will be and Robotech RPG Tactics is the greastest and biggest, and will be the greatest, bestest, yadda yadda yadda.” Seriously, whoever continues to write about how great Robotech is doing is every other form of media and the potential for a movie and then tying that to this project does not understand how that works and is only sounding like a fool.

6.) Palladium Books is offering as a sign of goodwill and an honest effort to restart relations with 5,000+ people who generously funded whatever (speculation continues to run rampant where 1.4 million went) over the past 3+ years the following:

a.) A FULL refund no questions asked and no bullshit, just a FULL refund

b.) An Amazon gift card for X dollars for continuing to wait; DO NOT offer Palladium Books project, I know that is a money saving move, but if you read the comments there are roughly 5000+ who want NOTHING from Palladium Books other than what they paid for 3+ years ago.

c.) Should Wave Two get produced a little bonus in the form of some of the “convention exclusive figures”

Personally, if I was Scott and/or Palladium Books I would start with 1 AND 2 written by Scott, not anyone else as the last two mouthpieces couldn’t write their way out of a wet paper bag and tended to piss off more people than anything else. Then after the apology, again if I was Scott and/or Palladium Books, I would move to 6.

But that is me.

I expect more better written smoke and mirrors.

Robotech RPG Tactics: Update 197 Weekend, My Thoughts

If there were only two sides to an argument conflict of all kinds would be easy.

White, Black

She said, He said

Right, Wrong

Jelly, Peanut Butter

Unfortunately, rarely are there only two sides to an argument. Again, unfortunately, it is a human condition to attempt to boil any argument down to two sides. Two is a lot easier to comprehend. Having a side to defend and assail is much easier than taking the time to look at all of the sides and even easier than taking the time to understand all of the sides and even easier again, than attempting to have some compassion and understanding for those who you disagree with.

This weekend, starting Friday and potentially ongoing, a series of events unfolded and here is what I know…

Carmine Bellaire of Rogue Heroes Games wrote a poorly worded post on the Robotech RPG Tactics comments. He may have had the best of intentions, unfortunately his words were poorly chosen. Essentially, he was attempting to drum support for his impending Rifts Boardgame Kickstarter and deflect as much negative attention from disgruntled Robotech RPG Tactics backers.

  • Prior to his comments, there had been discussion of backing the Rifts Boardgame with a dollar to post comments/commentary on the negative state of the Robotech RPG Tactics Kickstarter, to avoid anything Palladium Books in general, and be disruptive (in my opinion, a poor way to handle the situation)

What followed was, by internet standards with a few exceptions, a reasonably spirited discussion/argument. Make no mistake a lot was said, most of what was said was not well thought or well intentioned by anyone. This is a problem with internet communication where people on all sides are passionate and feel they have a stake in the discussion.

The following day or so, Kevin Siembieda president of Palladium Books posted Update 197 “A Terrible Day.” I can only hope that Kevin really does have the best interests of Carmine in mind when he wrote Update 197. Unfortunately, instead of writing a factual account of Carmine’s attempted suicide, support for Carmine, and expressing empathy and understanding for Carmine, people who are suicidal, and his target audience, he wrote an attack piece, laying the blame for Carmine’s situation at the feet of the backers.

And that is where I got involved. At first I was curious. Then I started researching. And here were are.

Remember, there are more than two sides to this and nothing is mutually exclusive.

Carmine did what he did not because of a single conversation on the internet. People who harbor suicidal thoughts harbor them for a long time and there are issues beyond the obvious and immediate. That conversation or the one on the Palladium forums or anywhere else may have been the straw that broke the camel’s back, but make no mistake Carmine needed assistance before then.

Kevin wrote what he wrote, not because he was truly concerned with his friend. The tone and topics of the Update speak directly to this. A friend in need is never in need of having their laundry aired in public, especially in the manner that Kevin chose.

What bothered me most, was the following…

the expectation of the tone Kevin’s update, that when there was a situation to exploit, Kevin would and did take that route.

the level of distrust of Kevin and Palladium Books has engendered, that the thought, “Kevin made it up” was seriously brought up and that is a horrible thought to have.

the complete lack of follow thru, see, on one hand I am okay with what Kevin wrote, if I thought someone or a group of someone’s had done something that led to a friend getting harmed, I too would react in an over the top manner. I would blame them. I would castigate them. I would hold them responsible. I would rant and rave without much thought.


I would think. I know I would do this, because I have been there.

Kevin should, not needs too, write another Update. He does not have to offer an apology for what he wrote. He should however, speak of his friend in better terms, stop speaking for his friend, inform the community he blamed of his friend’s condition, he should reach out to those who may also harbor similar thoughts, he should demonstrate that he is indeed concerned about his friend and not about his company. He should, in other words, do more.

What about the community? Well, I cannot speak for all internet communities and I won’t. I can say that there are people who need to dial back the vitriol, dial back the rhetoric, dial back the aggression. I understand frustration. I understand frustration leading to anger and all it takes to spark anger into a fire is a few poorly chosen. The community too, should do more.

For Carmine and others who harbor similar thoughts, I hope he recovers. I hope he moves on from this in a positive manner. I hope he has support and gets more support. I hope he reengages with the community, because while his initial words may have been poorly chosen, there is a dialog to engage in for everyone.

Finally, information…

Michigan Association for Suicide Prevention

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

Michigan Department of Health and Human Services-Suicide Prevention

* I have not provided links to the comments or Update 197 for my own reasons.


To Lazy To Wash Dishes and Other Adventures In Moving

Quick question for blogger buddies and those in the know, I am looking for a place to move the blog or start up a new one without the restrictions that WordPress does, any suggestions (Go Daddy is a no-go for me)?

With that question out of the way, onto life. I should be cooking, but last night’s lemon chicken has wrecked my kitchen. Wrecked I tell you. Doesn’t help that the dishwasher is a POS. Nothing says, “Should wash by hand” like three trips through the dishwasher. Yes, I should wash by hand, but I am (until this very moment) packing boxes.

Lemon chicken for those not in the know, is easy to make: fry chicken, make a lemon sauce, make rice, and combine. As anyone who fries chicken can tell you, frying chicken makes a mess and uses up a lot more dishes than you might think about:

  1. cutting board
  2. knife for cutting of chicken
  3. bowl for marinating
  4. measuring utensils for marinade
  5. bowl for batter, in this case cornstarch
  6. basket for pulling chicken out fryer
  7. rack to drain fried chicken

Keep in mind that is only for frying the chicken. Then there is the sauce, rice, and service:

  1. rice cooker bowl (hand wash and dry, but still)
  2. pot for sauce to mix and cook in (I could have mixed sauce in another bowl, but I am really familiar with making a citrus sauce)
  3. bowl for sauce for service and easy storage of left overs
  4. bowl for fried chicken (two bowls in this case, made a lot)
  5. bowl for rice
  6. serving spoon for rice
  7. serving spoon for lemon sauce
  8. six bowls (family and guests)
  9. six forks (see six bowls)
  10. six cups for drinks

See, lots of stuff and that doesn’t take into account the dishes from earlier in the day sauce making. I don’t mind other than times when the dishwasher is being a butt and I want to cook more food. Of course, tack on packing and not feeling like washing dishes by hand. 🙂

All-in-all, today has been a good day. More stuff packed, means less stuff to pack. In the mood to cook, not sure what yet. The kids are being somewhat helpful, meaning they are not underfoot and when asked do what is asked of them…once you ask once or twice more. Biggest pain today, other than the kitchen, was finally coming to grips with my Robotech RPG Tactics stuff.

I tossed out most of it. Even if there is a Wave 2 and even if there is a complete re-write of the rules that I did not participate in and even if all of that happens and it is perfect, I no longer care. Admittedly, it took a while to get there. For the longest time the box sat at the bottom of a pile of games. While packing the games, I pulled the box out and wondered what should be done with it; I did pay for it, I am still pissed about the whole Kickstarter thing, but we haven’t done anything with the game. Keeping the moving philosophy of “if you haven’t seen it for a year or more, you don’t need it” in mind, I put the miniatures in a box with other miniatures from games we no longer play. Why keep the miniatures? I can paint them later or the kids can practice on them, simple enough.


Blowing Robotech RPG Tactics Smoke

I should not have been surprised at all with the end result of our attempt at a home, after all I have been listening to the same lines from Palladium Books about the Robotech RPG Tactics Kickstarter. At least Kickstarter has the decency or smarts to remain quiet and not make things worse by…well see below from today’s (the first in 3 months) “update.”

“We apologize for the 3 months of MIA, as we have been working on multiple productions under the Palladium Books umbrella, plus contending with the process of a recovery after an accident.”

Apologize for the 3 months? What about 3 years of nothing? Well not nothing, but definitely not the whole promised package. What are these multiple productions? A good, hell a halfway decent project manager would not use such an ambiguous phrase with customers, they would detail what the “multiple productions” are and where they are in the production cycle. Right now I imagine someone at Palladium Books is using Wikipedia to read about Project Manager. The accident by the way was a broken arm of one person. Nothing that should have shut down Robotech RPG Tactics for 3 months or 3 years or even 3 days. Unless, Palladium Books is one person in which case, suck it up!

“Wave Two Rewards – This is and will remain our first and primary objective with RRT. It has been painstakingly slower than what we ever expected. As mentioned before, we are seeking to make improvements on Wave Two rewards based on your input and what we have learned with Wave One. This includes reduced part count, reduction of seams and better sprue layouts. However, there are many Wave Two figures that have to be reevaluated and quoted by various manufacturers. They have to review each figure, devise ideal part reductions and mold compositions. This process takes considerable time, and is even longer when there is already a pipeline of projects to be quoted ahead of ours.”

I call bullshit! This “first and primary objective” and “seeking to make improvements” and “reduced part count..blah, blah, blah, blah…BULLSHIT! I could have done all of this by myself faster. There are people who are self-producing the miniatures and they are not having any of the issues that Palladium Books is supposedly encountering. Thus, I call BULLSHIT! None of the above is anything one person with reliable access to Google, a good phone, paper-pen, and some uninterrupted time to couldn’t bang out in under two-weeks.

“RRT Relaunch & Support – We have received excellent suggestions, help and support from numerous RRT backers, event planners, avid wargamers, and Megaversal Ambassadors for in-depth insight, suggestions and ideas on how we can best relaunch Robotech® RPG Tactics™ and provide the support you want. And we intend to tap into many more people for their help and feedback, so keep ‘em coming. There are some wonderful plans developing on how to implement some entertaining options for organized game play, RRT community development and much more.”

Why bother? Robotech RPG Tactics is a shitte game. Not only me saying that. Lots of reviews. Plus the game play and numbers behind the game do not work. I should know, I wrote about them. And do not get me started on the quality of the writing. I have failed students who wrote better. Yet…yet, let’s say there are people out there, lots of them, who do enjoy the game for what it is and have been cheerfully chiming in with suggestions, WHAT ARE THEY? “There are some wonderful plans” is a bullshit throwaway statement used by people who don’t have anything. Seriously, if you have something “wonderful” now would be a good time to share them in the hopes of salvaging something from 5k people who originally supported the game.

“Future RRT Products & Support – This applies to all aspects of RRT, from Wave Two fulfillment and beyond. There have been noteworthy discussions as we review ancillary products, event support and organization, and what needs to follow.”

Again, why bother? Unless all of these pieces are being planned now while Palladium Books is working on Wave 2 (history has shown that this is not happening), why bother? Three years have passed with no end in sight, for the initial range of Robotech RPG Tactics. There is more than enough bad press about Palladium Books and Kickstarter to ensure that unless the license is firmly planted in someone else’s ownership, Palladium Books should never have another in-house successful Kickstarter. Don’t talk to me about Savage Worlds RIFTS, Pinnacle handled that themselves, Palladium Books was only a name.

“In the immediate months after Gen Con we expect to be focusing a large amount of our efforts on moving Robotech RPG Tactics™ and Robotech® forward. Please understand, the fulfillment of Wave Two rewards is extremely important to us and we simply want to try our very best to provide the best game pieces and gaming experience that the RRT backers deserve. We appreciate all of your support, ideas and patience, and we sincerely apologize for these delays. You’ll start to see more happening soon.”

Uh huh, sure you will. Palladium Books has not focused on Robotech RPG Tactics, other than to spare fewer and fewer words saying nothing, for the past three years and after 2 Gen Cons. So why would things change now? Oh, sure there has been an influx of cash from their deal with Pinnacle (better have been), but there was 1 MILLION dollars when the Kickstarter finished. I can’t even appreciate the effort to apologize, because even in this missive from Palladium Books there are so many areas to provide details, to demonstrate that anything other than blowing smoke is happening and the author of the missive chose generalities.

Much like our house, “its going to happen,” has happened too late.


Let’s Play Catch Up

It has been a while, don’t count the days! Since I have had much to say about anything other than house blah blah disaster blah blah shit news blah blah. And while you would be correct in assuming that the house has dominated much of our time and mentalemotional state around here, you would be incorrect in assuming it occupied it all, thus in an effort to kick things into a new gear I will catch you up on a bunch of things that are of interest to me and that I used to write about, don’t count the days, before blah blah…

Robotech RPG Tactics

When I last left off nothing had happened. In the time between then and now….NOTHING HAS HAPPENED! One day, when I am an adult and capable of understanding these things, someone is going to have to explain to me in small words and stick figures how one shit kicker company out of Michigan (Palladium Books) and Kickstarter were allowed to take 1.1 MILLION dollars and no one is responsible for the mess that remains.


I broke down today, not that way, and went grocery shopping. I will be cooking, SOLAR VORTEX (if there is a POLAR VORTEX there needs to be a heat version) withstanding. I am looking forward to cranking out some lemon chicken and moo gai pan on the stove that refuses to cooperate one last time.

What happened to FU! Slowcooker? Like every other writing project (see below), put on hold until I have a writing space that is not a box of bento boxes. Speaking of bentos, I have received a request for bento boxes for the upcoming school year. So thinking of starting a local homemade lunch delivery business for school years…ah I dream.


While we have (screeching sound) I have been reading. I started with Dune. I have not read Dune. I thought I had, but pretty obvious I have not. So far, I am enjoying Dune. Not the best nor the worst. Something I have been enjoying, immensely, has been The Business of Death Omnibus by Trent Jamieson. The main character sends spirits onto the next phase, Death is on a holiday, and all hell breaks loose. Fun, fast moving, and emotionally moving in a couple of scenes, I highly recommend it.


Everything is on hold. Has been on hold since (screeching noise)…I have a notebook where I write down ideas for later and some things I am working on with a friend. People have sent me stuff to work on and that has been nice. But until I set up my office space, I am a writerless writer other than the blog (that is not a put down, just an observation that pre (screeching noise) I used to pump out 3 to 5k words a day).


Munchkin and inebriated games of Cards Against Humanity have been it, other than video games. That being said, once the move is completed we have Ashes Rise of the Phoenixborn, Star Wars Rebellion, and a metric shit ton of Pathfinder Adventure Card Game to play. Our Rise of the Runelords game was interrupted, there is Wrath of the Righteous to play, and soon Mummies Mask. Don’t get me started on the character decks packed away. I weep for the lost gaming time.

However, once the move is completed there will be LOTS of gaming. As a family we drooled over the Star Wars Rebellion board, pointing at the planets and recounting what we knew. And the pieces…tiny death stars what more do I need to say?

Wrap Up

Since (screeching noise) this blog has been occupied by a lot of (screeching noise). That is coming to an end (unless something goes seriously sideways). We are setting up for a lot of gaming, food, and writing. Please be patient and thank you for sticking through (screeching noise).





Semi-Annual Robotech RPG Tactics Update & Rant

Who likes long stories without an end? Raise your hands. Come on. I know someone in the room does. Yes, you over there you silly fool and let me guess you would pay to hear that long story without an end?

If you guessed that silly fool was me, then you guessed right. If you too are a silly fool I will hazard a guess that you too paid good money to Palladium Games for the abysmal Robotech RPG Tactics and you are (check all that apply)…

  • waiting patiently for the rest of your order
  • forgot about Robotech RPG Tactics
  • laughing at us silly fools because you knew better or got lucky and did not have the money to give away
  • praying for a refund
  • praying for news of Wave 2
  • praying for the death of Palladium Games
  • other (please fill in the blank)

Yes folks, its that time of the year again. That time of the year where I post information gathered by another individual who is way more dedicated to the task I am; ask why no one in the world seems to care that 1 million plus dollars was turned into plastic crap; no one in the world seems to care that customers-investors-suckers-or whatever they are called have no protection or rights on Kickstarter; and where I send out this message into the interwebs where I hope other people will see this and take heed.

Let’s start with the information gathered by another person, screen name Forar (thank you for gathering this information):

Speaking of which, let’s check on the big board!

Days since Wayne said he’d give us a full breakdown on the status of all the pieces: *308*
Days since the campaign was supposed to fully deliver: 863
Days since the campaign ended: 1,088

Days until the end of 2017: 600

Period of time since the campaign became overdue added to show some perspective on just how late things are. Not that being late is in and of itself unacceptable; that’s a more complicated matter of both the factor of how late we are (7 months taking 8 is vastly more acceptable than 7 months taking 36-48+), their lackluster communications (both in terms of frequency and substantial information), and in comparison to their own wave one time table, just to name a few points of contention.

As you can see a long time has passed since anything has happened. If this were any other business the consumers-investors-suckers-or whatever we are being called (be nice) would have gotten a refund from the company (cough, Palladium Books) eager to avoid all of the bad press, negative information, and demonstrate they really do care about their reputation and customers (most likely in that order). Alas, because this was a Kickstarter, Palladium Books is under no obligation to do anything even remotely nice and from what I can tell only has to continue to say that they are “doing stuff” to avoid any repercussions other than bad press (which they seem to care not about).

Why no one in power or with access to power or desiring to create a name for themselves (the press would love this story and all of the other stories of failed Kickstarters-seriously there is a press gold mine of failed Kickstarters where the customers-investors-suckers-or whatever we are called did not get our order, our money back, and have ZERO recourse) has taken on the issue of consumer protection and Kickstarter I do not know. I do know that I have

asked for a refund…been told “Nope, Kickstarter says we don’t have to and we won’t.”

asked for information…been told, nothing and their “Updates” are horrible. Seriously Palladium Books hire a PR person who knows how to write a press release and give information in a positive way or hell, who knows how to put words together in sentences.

asked for my protections from Kickstarter…been told, “As long as they (Palladium Books) makes a good faith effort…” What is good faith? Like the Cloud and Porn you know it when you see it but you cannot define it other than to say you saw it or in this case, some random “update” that prattles on about how awesome they are, how awesome it will be, and how they are doing awesome stuff, but because people were mean to them (read feedback and pissed off over the delays) they won’t say until they have something awesome, which they are working on.

Fuck all.

This has been your semi-regular Robotech RPG Tactics update.